Yet Another Rant

Sometimes I use this blog to get things off my chest realizing that no one reads it.

Well here I go again.

I have been so nervous to have another child.

Scott's issues as they are I wondered and worried if my next child would also have similar issues.

At first I was curious as to what caused Autism and Aspergers.

How can I prevent this from happening again?

It took a while to figure out that I didn't cause Scott's issues.

Mark didn't and Scott didn't and our family hasn't given us some gene that gave it to him.

God did.

Now I'm not trying to blame him negatively.

I'm saying that Scott is the way he is because God knows what is best for my son and what is best for me and for Mark.

Seriously, can people honestly say that because I chose to get induced or give my son a vaccine or whatever, that Scott became the way he is?

NO!

There are so many others who get induced and give their children vaccines and lay on their backs while pregnant that don't have children with issues I really can't believe that I am the one that those things or whatever have the wrong effect on me.

I can believe that God in all his perfect wisdom decided to send this amazing child into my home because he knew that I would love him no matter what.

I'm sure there are other reasons also.

God wouldn't leave something like that to chance.

Not for my Scotty Boy and not for me; he loves us too much.

It took Mark and I a while to decide to have another baby.

Yes we wondered if our next child would have issues.

But we came to realize that it wasn't having another child with issues that was holding us back, it was us and all our imperfectness that was stopping us.

Scott is a wonderful child, who wouldn't want another one of him around?

But we are not wonderful parents, we often do the wrong things, we're just as clueless as other parents.

We had to decide if we could do it again.

Are we ever really ready?

Anyway, I just needed to get that off my chest.

A lady on facebook posted an article about the MMR vaccine causing autism and how the pharmaceutical companies are paying people to keep it quiet.

This lady on facebook has a daughter who is an autism specialist.

While being grateful for all people who try to help autistic children I wish that they would stop trying to find the cause and just try to concentrate on more ways to help them and help educate the world on how to act around children with autism.

Ok, I'll stop.

Sometimes I just get sensitive and need to get things ff my chest.